a new day (summaries of experience for 5/23 - 6/4/08)

okay, okay, okay, i know i've really let this go... yes my internet was down for about a week but there was more than that going on and i'm just going to leave it at that because today is a new day!

i've been meditating at least once a day, everyday over the past couple weeks that i've not blogged, only on 3 of those days (yesterday, last tues. & last fri.) did i meditate twice. i've been in a process (especially since dec. 07) of eliminating barriers/obstacles in my life that interfere w/mine and my family's happiness and success in our lives together. over the last couple weeks i've been busy again w/eliminating some big one's. today was a big day!

this transformation is such a subtle, moment by moment process that often times feels like i'm making no progress at all. some days, however, i take leaps in this growth and these moments serve as proof of the validity of these new practices (daily meditation & asanas) paired w/some well established practices (prayer & devotion). i'm humbled that i continue to have these opportunities to grow and appreciate the depth of my transformation of returning to my true, divine self, a child of God here only by Grace to serve others in His image.

i'm grateful, hopeful, and again, very humbled by all. i've been in a lot of emotional pain lately. though often i despair, i am able to understand that this is necessary in teaching me to rely more and more on God. when i think of it in this way, i am thankful for this opportunity: this opportunity to greater know my limitations and understand Gods' lack of limitation. even more so, those closest to me are transforming in the same fashion and i'm just in total awe of God's power, compassion, strength, forgiveness, and love. i still struggle w/feeling worthy of this but i trust God will take this too... i'm on the cusp of something great and i'm so thankful i have the ability to know this, discern this, and be humbled by this.