wed. 6/17/08- wed. 6/25/08

i'm still meditating everyday, twice a day and completing at least 3-6 asanas. i have begun to do more asanas related to helping arthritis per Asana Pranayama Mudra Bandha Anti-Rheumatic group. i also took a break last week from yoga class as my wrists and knees were hurting a lot! i'm going to go to a beginner class today (if they're still having it, i hope so!!) because i want to build back up gradually while my wrists and knees are healing. i'm also trying to create new ways of holding my wrists when doing chores, gardening, etc. so to build the muscle and not hurt anymore.

so, as i've been taking better care of my body, i'm noticing the need to make stronger boundaries with the relationships in my life. i've felt the need to retreat and be closer w/my son, husband, parents & brothers, and really haven't had much desire for much else. it seems that beyond this circle of family all else seems not so important, actually it seems like a bunch of hubbub! all this swirling, like people are just spinning their wheels trying to make it all happen. it's a turn off... as i say that i am also aware that i am passing a judgement and am trying to work on that as well. i'm trying to spend more of my energy/prana being able to decifer my own judgement vs. God revealing to me, but i also understand that that is an amazing skill that i have yet to feel confident.

that said, i again have to rely purely on faith, faith in God, faith in my relationship w/God, and faith in the day-to-day. this is still scary at times but we are reaping the benefits and i am in awe! jon and i have less income than ever in our lives (as i'm not working) yet all of our bills are getting paid on time, we're getting out of debt, and we are very happy! it's a very simple sort of living but we are very happy and experiencing amazing healing in our relationship w/each other and our families.